Taking a step up the ladder of life

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Me & my boyfriend have been together for 2 years we recently had a huge breakup because we argued way to much and realized that it just wasn’t okay anymore. we broke up on april 30th, we got back together on our 2yr 3 month anniversary which was on the 16th of may. Everything was perfect we hadn’t argued since we broke up we had amazin’ days together during the break up, we knew we were going to come back to each other. just this weekend i saw a turn for the worst, i began to feel like he was only with me just to make me happy for a few days then leave me again. It’s obvious that he isnt ready for a forever relationship. were both 17 and we haven’t experienced being with any other person but each other, we been together since we were 14; freshman year. There’s no doubt that i love him and that i’m in love with him, i adore everything about him, his smile, his eye’s, his cheese compliments, i love him; and i cant ever get enough of him. He’s a bitch, yeah who isn’t a bitch, he’ll curse at me yell at me, but every time i deserve it and it only makes me realize my mistakes. i trust him with my life, i’ve told him things i’ve never told anyone not even my best friends. He is my best friend, my boyfriend, and i wish to make him my husband one day. We have an unusual relationship. We’ve broken up about 2 times (a serious break up) Every time we’ve broken up we come back to each other, and during the break up we kiss ass to each other hang out goof around and everything, and thats just what i love about him, i can be my complete self when i’m with him…. Well today we were together and the whole time i felt like he just wanted me to take him home already, he kept sayin’ i need to be home i need to be home. i know ever since this weekend our relationship hasn’t been perfect whats so ever, i have no idea what to think, Is it another girl ? Does he not love me anymore ? did he fall out of love with him? i honestly have no idea what it may be. i need help idunoo wtf to do, i been crying all day, i’m scared to lose him because i know if i lose him this time were done for good and were never getting back together because were done with the back and forth relationship bull shit. were 17yrs old and i kno we can make it through this but it’s so scary when he’s one of them hard headed guys thats just like “i guess, okay, alright, we’ll see, i cant tell the future” that bull shit annoys the fuk outta me.